Status Report

I realize that I’d normally use my blogging section to post reviews or what my favorite videos are, but this time...there are things that I’d like to come clean about.

Over a week ago, I did some consulting with some of my friends on FiMFiction.net after reading comments from people saying that there were things about myself that I needed to improve. Those friends being BradyBunch and Dinodisneylover1. Each of them told me that I should cut back on the comments and posts detailing how much I’m against things like homosexuality. Another thing that came to light was that I had been backsliding Dramamaster829 out of anger-filled spite towards him for that message he sent me a while back and the rather disagreeable atmosphere he seemed to be creating.

A few days ago, I also had an unexpected talk with my parents, where some less than friendly conversations that I had on Twitter with another user named The Flower Doe (@MaddieDoereyme) came to their attention. These conversations particularly revolved around how evil I thought the act of homosexuality was, and despite not having anything against the people who are gay, TFD consistently called me homophobic. Unfortunately, our conflicts escalated to where we called each other names and accused one another of being people of cold-hearts.

I never told my parents about what was happening with me on Twitter because it was something I thought that I could take care of myself and pull through alone.

To tell you the truth...

Each of those events of confidings were significant moments that helped me realize how much of a jerk I have obviously been coming across as. All of this being because of many of the things I posted or said on the internet.

The biggest problem was that my time posting my thoughts on what I think of things like homosexuality was turning me into a person that was far from the guy people I’ve grown up with and talked to in person have known me by, and I’ve been letting my anger and lack of patience control me. The person that people outside of the internet have known me by is someone who’s kind, loving, caring, generous, humorous, and witty. That’s the person I want to keep being, and the one I want people on the internet to know me by.

I still don’t see homosexuality as a good thing, but I’ll try to be much more respectful and understanding towards the people who are gay, as well as less overreactive. I’ll make sure to keep a cool head and not get worked up over something so small like I’ve often been doing. The latter thing I said is exactly what I should’ve been doing in the first place, and it’s what God himself would want as well.

If I recall correctly, God wants those who follow Him to not be so hostile towards others and treat them like the brothers they truly are, no matter the beliefs.

I don’t expect the people I’ve fought against to forgive me for my past actions nor do I expect a rekindling, but from now on...I’ll be doing my best to not go emotionally overboard and be as respectful as possible. I want to show everyone that I’m not the kind of guy people are negatively making me out to be and that I’m not some kind of ticking time bomb, because I’m pretty sure that isn’t who I am.

😔I’m really sorry for all I’ve done. Truly I am.

Outside of that...

I deeply miss going to see my chiropractor. For much of my life, I’ve been suffering from a combination of scoliosis and arthritis, so starting a year or two ago, I’ve been visiting a chiropractor to help me out. Because of the COVID-19 pandemic, though...I’ve been unable to make appointments. I’ve been having particular trouble with the back of my neck lately and it’s killing me.